i'm in college. why do i still have a xanga? why do i still not capitalize the begining of sentences- or anything for that matter?

-both good questions.

i found this random thought in a pile of old random thoughts i had once written down when i had everything figured out... a long long time ago.

no one has

confidence&independence

you have to

pick&choose

i wish i had everything figured out again.

you know that sick in the stomach feeling i have right now.

it is so much worse then that feeling of thinking i might do something wrong.

its that feeling of knowing.

again.

tonight= homecoming senior year,

over all good.

let it rain.

karma.

it is 11:49 am.

today has had the potential to be the worst day ever so far.

i feel as if i have to apologize to any poor soul that even so much as glanced at me today.

however i dont really care.

which is awfully surprising.

i think i should have some sort of embarressment or something.

and i dont.

im completely apethetic.

the way i see it is....

i still look hott in a bikini.

oh and i have a good personality.